I wish

I wish he'd be here holding me tight
"everything's fine sweety"
He's gone and I feel sad
He's gone and maybe that's better

I wish not for him really
but want to be in love
I thought we held something warm together
He's gone and maybe that's beter

I wish it didn't hurt
because he needs to grow up
Somewhere I had secret plans
He's gone and maybe that's better

I wish the pain was not that bad
the alcohol's opened my old wound
why I am trying to convince myself that he's gone and
Maybe that's better...