The downside of feeling elated, of flying high always comes eventually...
If until yesterday I felt all powerful, hyper-confident, beautiful, riding the clouds, loveable, surfing the wave, accepting new sides of me that were previously neglected, allowing the overwhelming emotions to pour out of my every cell and loving it all.... well today is a rather different story. After the peak, here comes the trough!
I feel wide opened, chaotic, judgemental, vulnerable, sad, unprotected, exposed, unshielded, defenceless, powerless... I know my inner witch has returned with a vengeance yet I am unable to show her the door. And so I alternatively watch her objectively try to do her work before getting caught in her spider web... and the cycles start again.
At this very minute I am free of the cobweb and I can say that the experience of the weekend was worthwhile and the processing work (and love) has started in my deepest core. In the next I might be overwhelmed and wishing that the weekend had not happened at all...
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My dearest and wonderful C,
Having read your 'Exquisite week end' and this post too, I can only say: was it a film? was it real? sometimes it feels good to be the lead actress of a story that feels like a film... in any case, they enrich our lives as sweet or bitter-sweet memories...
As long as we carry on enriching our lives also with other sources of happiness...
Beauty is in every corner of the Universe, within ourselves.
xx R
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