a missing ingredient

i'm missing an ingredient somewhere
that I wish I could find...
not too sure what it is unfortunately
anyone's got a recipe to help?
been told it's a little blend without it

i hope i can find it
will incorporate it with the stock that tastes good
hoping that it blends well

if i like the look and smell of it
i'll put it to the real test out there...
wish me luck!

free fall

what happened?
falling
in the deep shit hole
with no parachute
it's getting darker and darker
i'm going faster and faster

but what now?
i am slowing down
have a few words done the trick?
there's a bottom at the end of this well
open to an unknown and welcoming place

so what next?
the experience had to be revisited
painful, lonely, fearful, lifeless
rubbing on old awaken wounds
re-membered!

a conscious suffering
one that has a meaning
and slowly brings healing

:-))

un regard complice
un sourire en coin
un sentiment de surprise
un mot de remerciement vers l'impalpable
un quelque chose d'indéfinissable
...