how can this be not good nor bad?
or that be not right nor wrong?
I do this and I hate myself for it
I do that and I love myself for it
I do this and I risk be rejected for it
so this is bad
I am bad
this part of me that does this is bad
I end up hating her
I do that and I'm being loved for it
so that is good
I am good
that part of me that does that is good
I end up sticking around with her
yet they're both me, aren't they?
how on Earth can I live hating some part of me?
and many more....
learning to not judge, not fly away, not repress, not move, learning to listen and be
remembering again and again, this is not bad and that is not good - it's an illusion